As if the grindstone wasn't hard enough...

Two weeks ago I returned to work.

Which is good.

And also not good.

I honestly thought the second week would be my hardest because the first week would feel like a "Mommy break".

Wrong.

The first two hours felt like a Mommy break. After that, I think I cried like 5 or 6 times that week.  However, the second week got easier in the sense that I didn't cry, though it was hard to leave my baby all the same.

However, when I was spending all of my time at home with the baby, I didn't feel "productive". That isn't the right word, but I am not sure what the right word is. Anyway, I didn't feel like I was contributing much.  I think the "ideal" would be like part-time work.  Working a few hours in the evening or on the weekend to get away from the house for a bit and be out using my skills... But this full-time work is hard!   I miss my baby!!

Today, she fell asleep on my chest. She doesn't do that often. I just LOVED it. I didn't move for two hours. I just let her sleep on me, snuggling her. God really has given Chris and I such a beautiful gift.


Anyway...that was a rather sentimental post.  I shall return to my normal self shortly. :)