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I just woke up from this HORRIBLE nightmare! I dreamed the supreme court upheld Obamacare.

Wait, what!? That actually happened?!?!?!

Well, my day is ruined.

Hindsight is 20/20

Do you ever have those moments where you think of something clever to say AFTER the moment has passed?

I thought of all of these things I wanted to say to the lady at my ex-externship position.

"Well, you said you weren't sure if you wanted 2 or 3 externs... I just made up your mind for you"

"YOU aren't acting professionally"

"30 days notice is far more than the standard social convention"

"your site isn't the only good site..."

Etc. etc. etc.

But I know I would never have said these things... And they would not have helped if I had said them. It was just a super awkward phone call.

stress

I am feeling unhealthy levels of stress today. It is not good. I keep trying to find some sort of coping mechanisim. Like breathing deep or closeing my eyes and trying to slow my heart rate down.

it isn't working.

I hate that this is my biggest vice. I am so sick of feeling stress all the time. I need it to go away.

Kara

Change

I am ready for this blog to look different.

Now to find the energy to do it.

What say you?

Oh. My. Gosh.

I just woke up. I was lying in bed, and the baby starts squirming. Then, it happens.

I can only define it as the most terrifying sound I have ever heard.

It was so terrifying, in fact, that I am 99% sure that the baby actually blew a hole in her diaper.

And then she fell back asleep.

This presents me with a dilemma: do I let her sleep and feel totally guilty about not changing her, and possibly have to change the sheets and her pajamas when she wakes up? Or, do I do the responsible thing and wake her up? You may question my parenting skills upon reading that last part, but keep in mind that it was 4-something a.m., and she was sleeping! So, I woke her up.

And wow. It was almost as terrifying as it sounded. But I am officially impressed with 'Luvs' for holding that mess in. I did not even have to change her pajamas!

It was very much worth waking her up too, because after I was done changing her she wasn't mad at me for waking her up but instead looked up at me and gave me a big, beautiful smile! What a sweetheart.

Feeling impatient.

Why is it only Tuesday??

I have nothing to say...

...but I am posting anyway so I can use this app.

Had my interview on Friday and am anxiously waiting to hear from them. Should know by Friday...